Emo Script

Boss came in extra early today. And I can't find the strength to start with my work. I always have this uncomfortable feeling when I reached the office door way. The feeling of turning back and walk straight home. I am not trying to be hilarious. I am just feeling very very very exhausted. It's getting hard to concentrate on work. I tend to dislike some tiny stuffs. Maybe I am not having so much work to do during these few weeks that make me feel like I am kind of wasting my time in the office. 8-hours seems to be a long long day because I am being not progressive at all. I am getting way too emotional. I can't control my emotion these few days. This blue mood seems to stick with me whenever I am not working. The worst thing is that I am getting too forgetful these days. I just told Dy on Monday afternoon that I will confirm with him whether I will go out with him and Irene again later in the evening. But I forgot all about that and went straight to the office. I only recall this in the next morning. I am such a lousy date. I will try to remember next time. I need to keep myself busy so that I will stop thinking about nonsense.

L.O.V.E

There are some memories buried deep inside your heart that you do not wish people to dig in. Somewhere you feel painful whenever you thought about it. I wish that I could wipe off all the bad memories once and for all. But somehow I just can't stop thinking about it. It keeps on repeating inside my mind.
There are always some conflicts between people. I am starting to miss someone when these bad things happen. How I wish that very person is here with me now. Just right by my side. I wish to hug him tight. I wish I could just lean on his shoulder with an empty mind. I want to spend 24 hours with him. I could spend the whole day just looking at him without feeling bored. I love the way you tug me in your arms. I really miss you.

Improper

A lot had happened lately. Sometimes life could get tough. Heavy thoughts were playing in my mind while the pouring rain showered last night. Feeling of unsure and insecure is getting stronger. I am starting to feel panic and uncertain of my decisions. Am I just being afraid of getting into a new relationship or so? Getting into serious relationship means marriage and children. I don't think I am prepared for that now. I am just thinking too much. I wish that this will end soon.

Cheerful Tuesday

I am still working now, definitely. I have been wanting to post about this book for ages. 

Haven't find the time and the mood to do so. 

Since I am leaning against my chair and I don't find the strength to work,

blogging is the best choice to kill the time. 

This is really a very fine book. I love the way the writer put

it to encourage his reader. 

Should have bought it earlier. But better late than never. 

I am really thankful that my parents have supported my decisions without questioning me.

I was very surprised. I have never thought of this.

I am very grateful to them.

French Braid and Wedding

I am in love with this braid recently. Have been wearing it very often. I am having fun playing around with my hair. I am basically still very caught up with work. Being busy just kept me from thinking too much, which is a good thing for me. Nothing much happened lately. Just came back from a short trip to Sibu. Attending Jimmy and Ethelynn's wedding.

Didn't took much pictures that day. I feel really happy for those two love birds. Wedding could be very touching. Jimmy and Ethelynn, I wish you two happy ever after and all the best for years to come.

Wednesday

I really really love this hair bun to the max. Got my brother to took this photo for me cause I can't possibly do this by my own. I never know how do I look from the back. I love my back view though. But my hair is really really dry and fussy. Haven't find the hair product that actually works for my dry hair. Am looking for the hair product that can make my hair smooth and silky. Still working hard on that. Had recently dyed my hair and that just make it worst. Have to find some repair serum to save it. Think to wear my hair long, not just long but super long. Hope I can stand the heat.

Fragrance

This memory is just as sweet as the smell from this little bottle.

I got carried away by its fragrance. No more uncertainty and 

no more inconfident. I love how this little magic bottle surprises

me. 

Life is filled with too much uncertainties and it is somehow

uncontrollable.

Have been quite worn out by work recently. Nothing new about

work actually. Just a couple of small tender to be estimated and

were successfully submitted yesterday. I am hoping that the jobs

would be awarded to the company. There is still great way ahead.

Feeling very lazy lately. 

I can't find any energy to do anything. The only thing I am missing is

my cozy bed. I want to lay down.

Seriously I want to tell my boss that I think I need a break!